It’s no secret that I have issues with my self esteem and body image. In 2015 I had a hysterectomy and in September, when the recovery period was over, I joined Slimming World and began to follow their diet plan. I weighed 16 stone, 2 and a half pounds. I felt disgusting and extremely unhappy with how I looked. There was only a small mirror visible in the house, the full length mirror was hidden at the side of the wardrobe and only came out when I ‘had’ to.
Body Image High.
I didn’t set weekly goals; I knew from experience that this was counter productive for me. If I decided to loose 1lb that week and didn’t achieve it, it inevitably meant I would struggle to follow the plan the next week. Instead I simply aimed to “not gain” each week and slowly the weight came off.
It took 15 months but I lost a total of 5 stone. I felt fantastic. My body image was at an all time high, I felt sexy and sassy. I bought skinny jeans and short skirts. My mood improved too. I felt I could hold my head up, no-longer worried about being called a “fat cow” in the street (yes that happened).
Falling off the wagon.
In 2017 I returned to work and made a half hearted effort to remain on plan and maintain my weight loss, but by the end of 2017 I had put 7lbs on.
The following year I gained another 7lbs.
In 2019 when my back pain became debilitating again, the weight gain began in earnest. New clothes had to be purchased in a larger size, my skinny jeans put away, and my bike leathers no-longer fit.
Last week I spoke to Mr. H and we agreed to make a serious effort to once again follow the slimming world plan. They are doing a virtual class, which costs £3.75 a week. You may be thinking that this is not bad when we used to pay £4.95 a week, but as this is really just to give you access to an online portal I think it’s a bit much. Ok, that’s not strictly true, it is also to get the support of your consultant, to pay her wages as it were – but our consultant (while she is a lovely person) sucks when in comes to giving support when people are struggling. I rejoined and went to one of the ‘zoom’ classes. I haven’t been again. I would have thought that given she knew how I was/am struggling she would have contacted me to ask if all was ok, if I needed help. I have not had any contact from since 2015, when she checked all was ok after my initial joining, so I am a bit reluctant to put money into her pocket for doing nothing, but I need to be able to check the syn values of some foods which means I have to.
Today I started this project. I will be adding to it as often as possible, and I completely appreciate that it may not be to everyone’s taste and so please do not feel you need to read them! This is my attempt to keep myself honest as it were, and record the journey back to the happier, healthier and slimmer me.
The slideshow below contains a selection of images, some before I lost weight and some after. This is to give me a reminder, why I am doing this and where I want to get back to.
Want to join me in trying to lose weight and/or be healthier? You don’t need to be following slimming world, weight watchers or any other plan – I simply mean, if you want to share your own journey to being a healthier you, add your post to the inlinkz below, and tell us about your journey, struggles, successes and thoughts on body image.
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