I shared a post a few weeks ago about squirting orgasms in “Overcoming Embarrassment” and I thought I needed to write a follow up. While I spoke in this earlier post about being embarrassed that I had wet the bed. While I have experienced these orgasms through masturbation I haven’t during play with MrH. This has prompted me to wonder… Why? I believe it’s because I’m ashamed and embarrassed. I believe I hold back frightened that MrH would be disgusted if he were covered or touched …
What are you waiting for? An invitation?
I’ve mentioned in other posts that right now I’m incredibly horny. This new level of submission (see take me own me use me) the realisation of this change as well as the reinstatement of the rules has thrown my body into a highly sensitive state. I have to ask if I want to use my syns. Each time I ask it reminds me of my submission. Each time he answers I get a thrill and my arousal increases. Add to this the new, stricter rule …
Take me, own me, use me.
I’ve been very naughty recently. The rules MrH set me at the start of the year have lapsed. I guess some of you will say that MrH is to blame, that he should have been enforcing the rules. But in reality he decided to allow them to lapse. I was stressed and struggling with outside forces (work – settling into a new job) and he decided that for a while he wasn’t going to have me thinking I was letting him down too, by punishing me. But those …
Reflecting….
MrH has been my Dominant for 9 months now and over the last few days I have been prompted to reflect on our journey by a few other blog posts. In short it’s been wonderful. Every area of our relationship has been touched by the D/s dynamic and made stronger, more passionate, more intimate and more loving. I don’t want you to think that our relationship/marriage was in trouble, boring or lacking anything before we introduced D/s. It wasn’t. We loved each other and made …