If you’re familiar with my blog you’ll be aware that I have regular emotional meltdowns. Subdrop after particularly intense play can feel quite brutal. I feel so needy and desperate for MrH to touch and reassure me but I’m also unable to articulate it well. Usually this results in tears and then cuddles.
I also get separation anxiety. When MrH is at work on a Saturday or away from home (no matter where he is) I get anxious. That anxiety usually manifests in sadness, and tears. Thankfully he’s never gone for long. I am hoping that this emotional dependency eases up as it isn’t healthy.
It’s one area that D/s has changed me. I used to be quite independent. I used to be ok with going out with other people, riding the bikes with some girlfriends, visiting friends. Now I can’t face it. Now I don’t want to be away from him. I’m terrified to be away from him. I need him to feel safe.
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