Tomorrow we’re going to our first BDSM event. I’m getting hair and makeup done and I’ve had my nails manicured and my brows waxed and tinted today. I’m about 45% nervous 55% excited. Oh and I’m so horny again! Work has settled into place this week and I’ve been able to relax into a routine. That has lessened my daily stress and this in turn has allowed me to bring my focus back to MrH. Naturally that leads to me being wanton and horny. Yesterday …
Sir ?
Last night when MrH was in the bath I sent him a message asking if I could get out a toy. He replied that I could and asked me to video call him so he could watch me masturbate. Unfortunately I didn’t see the instruction to video call him but I did get out the toy. I picked promises and applied some lube. I began lied on my back… slowly using the vibe… deciding to change things I knelt up and turned to face the …
Everything changes
Today we went on a bike ride… and I mean motorbike not push bike…. I don’t pedal 😂 We haven’t been out much together and when we do I usually take the lead. When I first passed my test I went out riding with a group. MrH didn’t like that and so I went alone. The second year of riding, I had a hysterectomy in the July and so I was unable to ride for 3 months afterwards. By the time I was recovered the weather …
Hotel stay – debrief
We have started making time to discuss play, not a massive deal no one has to write a report or complete a ‘feedback sheet’ but a snuggle with questions and answers. So, Saturday morning at the hotel, as we lay in bed with our coffee too hot to drink, I snuggled into MrH’s side “Did you enjoy last night Sir? I asked. “I did very much Sweetgirl,” he replied. “Did you?” “Yes Sir.” I smiled. “Is there anything you didn’t like or wouldn’t want to do …
Fear
I shared a post a few weeks ago about squirting orgasms in “Overcoming Embarrassment” and I thought I needed to write a follow up. While I spoke in this earlier post about being embarrassed that I had wet the bed. While I have experienced these orgasms through masturbation I haven’t during play with MrH. This has prompted me to wonder… Why? I believe it’s because I’m ashamed and embarrassed. I believe I hold back frightened that MrH would be disgusted if he were covered or touched …
Medial branch nerve block – test procedure
Today I went into hospital for a diagnostic procedure. I’ve have back pain. I’ve had back pain since 2008. I woke up one day in much pain I couldn’t walk. I had sciatic pain. My left leg kept going numb. The doctors just gave me pain meds. After 18 months i was referred to rheumatology. I was told it could be a few things. Learn to live with it. I was 35. I had access to a private medical insurance and they arranged an MRI. …
What are you waiting for? An invitation?
I’ve mentioned in other posts that right now I’m incredibly horny. This new level of submission (see take me own me use me) the realisation of this change as well as the reinstatement of the rules has thrown my body into a highly sensitive state. I have to ask if I want to use my syns. Each time I ask it reminds me of my submission. Each time he answers I get a thrill and my arousal increases. Add to this the new, stricter rule …
Take me, own me, use me.
I’ve been very naughty recently. The rules MrH set me at the start of the year have lapsed. I guess some of you will say that MrH is to blame, that he should have been enforcing the rules. But in reality he decided to allow them to lapse. I was stressed and struggling with outside forces (work – settling into a new job) and he decided that for a while he wasn’t going to have me thinking I was letting him down too, by punishing me. But those …
Doin’ it Doggy style
This has always been one of my favourite positions for sex. It feels primal and I love that feeling of impact as MrH thrusts into me.
With the introduction of D/s MrH has taken this to a new delicious level. He’s tied me, arms behind my back and pushed me face down over the bed. He made handles in the rope work to hold as he penetrated me and
Reflecting….
MrH has been my Dominant for 9 months now and over the last few days I have been prompted to reflect on our journey by a few other blog posts. In short it’s been wonderful. Every area of our relationship has been touched by the D/s dynamic and made stronger, more passionate, more intimate and more loving. I don’t want you to think that our relationship/marriage was in trouble, boring or lacking anything before we introduced D/s. It wasn’t. We loved each other and made …