Exploring Kink as a Monogamous Married Couple
Things have been a little off lately. I’m so tired, a side effect of the amitriptyline, I come home from work, eat, and go to bed. MrH is suffering too. He just isn’t quite himself, and I know the situation must be hard for him. He’s worried about my back. He’s having to do so much extra. He drives me to work and then doubles back to go to work himself. He works through his lunch so he can leave early to come pick me up. …
I have written before about Pain… My pain. Probably far too much of my blog is about pain… although some of it is good pain. Good Pain that takes my bad pain away. Throughout today my pain has shifted from the current 6 to 7 then 8…. I phoned the GP and they have increased the new pain medication. When I got home I went in the bath, and then to bed. I lay down and cried. Partly because I’m home. Partly because I can relax. Mainly …
Last Friday I went to see my GP. I had booked the day off work so it was a good opportunity to go and review the medications. Since my hospital stay early in April I have been taking regular doses of Codeine as well as Paracetamol and I am now taking Naproxen (a nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory). The Naproxen has helped with joint stiffness in my shoulders and knees but not with the sciatic pain. The Codeine has helped with pain but unfortunately about 50 mins after …
I did it. The whole alphabet. I couldn’t have done it if I hadn’t spent the weekends preparing a number of posts in advance. It was an interesting challenge but not one I will do again. I prefer writing about things as they happen to me, as I think about them, or when something inspires me. It is my “journal” after all. Here are links to each post.
This last week we decided to see if I could ride my bike. The hope being that, because of the different sitting position, my leg won’t go numb and I will be able to regain some independence. Perhaps 2 wheels would be better than 4 for now. For the last few weeks Mr H has driven me to work, dropped me off, then gone to work. He’s worked through his lunch and left early to pick me up. It’s made his day and mine longer. …
I tried driving today for the first time. It did not go well. Mr H needed to take his bike into the shop for a service and so, as the shop is only 4 miles away from our house I decided this could be my maiden voyage so to speak. Within 1 mile I knew there was a problem. Lifting my left leg to use the clutch was causing my leg to shake and go cold. I mean it is cold today, but cold, the cold feeling was …
At the moment, I am on the edge. My pain is barely controlled. I’m exhausted. I get through work but the effort of doing so through the pain is exhausting. So today I came home from work and I headed straight up to bed. I took the pain medication I can take and I got into bed. The relief I felt just laying down in bed. I can’t describe it. It was so nice. Yesterday was the same. I’m exhausted. I’m so sick of being tired. I really am. …
Your body tells me what you need. Your eyes reveal your thoughts. No secrets exist between us. I know you. As I am yours, you are mine. And I love you. I’m presently in hospital. It makes me think and write soppy things. I miss Mr H so much. I hate being around so many people. It’s noisy and busy. I couldn’t sleep well because of the other patients. There’s no sign of cauda equina so that’s good. On the down side they don’t know …
Today Mr H and I went to the bike show in Manchester, UK. We went a few years ago and it was busy and yet a good place to look for a bargain. Ear Protection We wanted to purchase some custom made ear protectors, as they will not only protect our hearing as we ride but also enable us to hear through our new communication kits more effectively. Doesn’t make sense does it? Wearing ear plugs will help you hear better? It works because they …
They cancelled my hospital admission. I was supposed to be having the second procedure done in my spine on Monday… by today I would have been feeling better… by Friday I would have been, dare I say, finally pain free. At least my back wouldn’t be hurting. Instead I am waiting for them to call me with a new admission date. Yesterday MrH told our son he had been looking forward to taking me to the cinema when my back was not painful. I wanted …