During a light hearted online group discussion yesterday I typed ‘rolls eyes’ in response to a comment by one of the Dom’s (who from here on I will refer to as MrX because using Dom all the time reads quite aggressively). Now MrX is aware that Mr H has forbidden eye rolling at him, as it is disrespectful. MrX commented that he would inform Mr H of my eye rolling.
Before I go any further [insert Meatloaf song 😂 ] I want to make it clear that I respect MrX and any other persons who I interact with online and I am in no way complaining about his comment. Our conversation was lighthearted and I look forward to many more conversations in the future.
Maintaining my personality.
I replied that he could tell Mr H if he wanted, I was only forbidden to eye roll at Mr H. MrX then asked ‘so Mr H is ok with you being disrespectful to other people just not him?’ And I replied ‘yep’. MrX expressed the opinion that Mr H did not run a very tight ship because he allows this behaviour.
The exchange got me thinking, and I know Mr H considered posting a reply to address this but the conversation moved on to other things.
I’m a very playful person and banter, eye-rolling, joking and sarcasm is part and parcel of my personality. I know MrH doesn’t want to change me – he loves the person I am – but he loves the fact that I am submissive to his demands. That I will temper my behaviour as he asks me to, that I will submit and defer to his leadership in a way I will not to anyone else.
Does my personality make me a disrespectful sub?
Having said that, MrX’s comments have brought to the fore one of my concerns for immersion into the community. MrH is planning for us to go to a local club and I worry that I will get us both into trouble by being seen as disrespectful in the way I converse with other Dominants.
MrH maintains that providing I am doing as he asks it will be fine. That if someone has a problem he will explain that I submit to him and no one else and therefore he has no problem with me talking to others and having a laugh.
I hope that MrX reads this and understands… my eye rolling is just part of who I am, and that I meant no disrespect. MrH’s ship is sailed as he commands 😊