emotional

Reflection – emotional progress

This morning I got my journal out and looked back over some of my early posts. One of the things I noticed most was the emotional turmoil I experienced in those early weeks, and how we dealt with it, or more to the point how we struggled to deal with it. The rollercoaster of emotions took us by surprise and we didn’t communicate enough. Emotional rollercoaster. Suddenly I needed contact with Mr H. I needed to be near him, even following him around the house. …

I love it

I don’t profess to be a professional writer of poetry but sometimes I get these rhymes that buzz around in my head almost demanding to be written down, and this was one that happened about Mr H when our D/s was new.  I hope you like it, my Ode to MrH aka I love it. An Ode To MrH I love it when you tie me up, I love it when you tease. I love it when you stroke my breasts My nipples firmly squeeze …

New page in a notebook

Setting limits

As our journey began Mr H and I discussed many things. What did we want from D/s? Should we have a contract? Could we make it 24/7? What should we call each other? What are our limits? I will post about each of these but today I am reflecting on the latter; what are the limits. We agreed to talk about limits but I had no idea what he might be wanting to explore and so I didn’t know really how to begin. I’d dithered …

Serenity in submission 

I used to be quite an anxious person and although I do not mean to suggest I am ‘cured’ because I doubt very much that I ever will be, my anxiety has reduced. I believe this is due to the introduction of dominance and submission to my life.  When I am with Mr H, I am calm, he is in charge and this seems to be the key to keeping my anxiety under control. Letting go of the need to be in charge and micromanage …

Collars and Chains

The decision to wear a collar or not is of course entirely personal. It doesn’t make you any less of a submissive if you don’t wear a solid collar with a padlock so big your neighbour could see it without their binoculars! Your dynamic is private and personal to you – so if your Dom says you’re not a good submissive because you want something discrete or don’t want a collar at all, he is probably not the Dominant you want or are safe with. …