It’s 2am. I’m awake. Not good.
Our eldest son who’s almost 25 recently told me he’s still struggling with depression and feelings of self harm. Although I’ve got him to the medical professionals I don’t know if he’s actually attended any of the follow up appointments, and he refuses medication.
What has this got to do with me being awake? I came home from work today and assumed he was at work, and that he would be home around 11.
It’s now 2am. He isn’t home.
I’ve messaged him and he informs me he’s gone 50 miles away visiting friends he went to university with. He feels he shouldn’t have to tell me where he’s going.
I’ve tried to explain that I’m worried about him. I’ve explained I don’t sleep until I know he’s safely home. Having lived away from home for 4 years he’s used to not being answerable to anyone. He’s used to being independent.
I just don’t know what to do. How do I stop worrying?
I suppose I never will, in the meantime here is a song that is playing in my head at the moment, Breathe (2am) by Anna Nalick.
If you or someone you love is suffering with depression, please get help. Click HERE to go to the NHS Mental Heath Helplines page.