Hot, hot, hot

There’s a new cream that the consultant has given me to help reduce inflammation and pain in the joints… My back and my knees are the two places that we apply the cream twice a day. I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it before it’s called Capsaicin. Capsaicin is taken from chilli peppers. It works mainly by reducing Substance P, a pain transmitter in your nerves. Results from RCTs assessing its role in treating osteoarthritis suggest that it can be effective in reducing pain and tenderness in …

Journal 27-06-19: Mardy Pants

Sometimes I can be a mardy pants. If you’re not familiar with the term, imagine a toddler who isn’t getting their own way… and that’s what I mean by being a mardy pants! I’ve had a tough week and I’m tired and cranky. Wooing The other day someone messaged me asking if I’d like to review their products. The person had only just created their twitter profile. They had no information suggesting they were affiliated with a company. No information at all actually. So I …

Sinful Sunday?

Hardly.  We stayed at a friends house last night to keep her cat company. She has just moved house and her cat is elderly, so we offered to go stay rather than stress her out at a cattery. We took our fire stick and used my phones WiFi hotspot to connect it to the internet. Her internet wasn’t yet set up at the new house. Cat sitting My friends bed is very comfortable but she has a double – we are used to a king. …

An everyday bra

Or is that a bra for everyday? @TheKnickerFairy on Twitter is a lovely lady who is an Anne Summers sales consultant. She sells via her twitter account and offers brilliant service and advice! I’ve bought some lovely things from her that Mr H has picked and I have to say I love him taking an interest in my underwear. He picks the set I wear each day and it’s one of the rules that I have to have a matching set on each day. There’s been …

Shoes, submission and man points

This blog started as an online extension/version of a written journal that I began shortly after Mr H and I started down the route of Dom and sub. One of the online community/sites we had joined SubMrs had an number of article/resources about journaling and communication and I decided I would use this medium to record my thoughts. Mr H would read it and this would then open a discussion. A way to communicate We didn’t stay with that particular site long. I found that …

Out of it

Things have been a little off lately.  I’m so tired, a side effect of the amitriptyline, I come home from work, eat, and go to bed.  MrH is suffering too. He just isn’t quite himself, and I know the situation must be hard for him. He’s worried about my back. He’s having to do so much extra. He drives me to work and then doubles back to go to work himself. He works through his lunch so he can leave early to come pick me up. …

negative body image

Gaslighting

I didn’t think I’d ever been a victim of gaslighting, but after reading the post by Swirling Fire and looking at the image included (below) I realised I had actually been a victim of this 3 times…. The First Time The first time… that started when I was a child. With my mum and stepdad. To this day I say “sorry” for everything. If you bump into me, I say sorry. If you get angry, at anything, I say sorry. If you are tired, I …

Lucky

Count yourself lucky

By some standards my upbringing was normal. Born in 1974 in a small mining town in South Yorkshire, my maternal grandparents lived one street away and my paternal grandparents had a farm.  I was lucky until I was 5 years old, and my life was perfect, if you don’t count the fact that my tiny tears doll didn’t cry anymore because my baby brother pulled it’s head off!  Then one night my mum left my dad and moved us in with his best friend. A man who’s …

woman with book and cup of coffee in bath

2 wheels not 4?

This last week we decided to see if I could ride my bike. The hope being that, because of the different sitting position, my leg won’t go numb and I will be able to regain some independence. Perhaps 2 wheels would be better than 4 for now. For the last few weeks Mr H has driven me to work, dropped me off, then gone to work. He’s worked through his lunch and left early to pick me up. It’s made his day and mine longer. …

I hear you,even when you’re silent

Your body tells me what you need. Your eyes reveal your thoughts. No secrets exist between us. I know you. As I am yours, you are mine. And I love you. I’m presently in hospital. It makes me think and write soppy things. I miss Mr H so much. I hate being around so many people. It’s noisy and busy. I couldn’t sleep well because of the other patients. There’s no sign of cauda equina so that’s good. On the down side they don’t know …