Exploring Kink as a Monogamous Married Couple
With the crutches being used again to help me get about, Mr H has been opening doors and closing them, when we have had to go out. As he pointed out, I’ve been wanting him to open and close the car doors like this for a while, so I’m enjoying it immensely. I wait in the car for him to walk around and open the door. He offers me his hand and helps me out. I’d like to say it looks elegant but the reality …
This morning I woke up and the pain I wrote about yesterday was worse. Still I tried to get up. Mr H helped me get dressed. It took me 45 minutes to accept I was not going to work. Instead Mr H drove me to the hospital. I have written about the issues at work before. Last March when I was in hospital for 2 days and off work a total of 6 days, I received a number of unsupportive messages, mainly how it was just …
This morning when I got up, I was so tired and in so much pain I cried. Can you imagine that? You open your eyes and as soon as you move pain hits you. Chronic pain, the pain I have, is I think something very few people fully understand. Understanding Chronic Pain. “Have you taken some pain killers?” and “We all have back ache sometimes.” Yes, I have actually heard these sentences. My mum is one of the worst offenders. She resides deep in the …
Today I had an appointment at the hospital to discuss the next plan for pain relief. For once we were in and out quickly, the consultant asked a couple of questions and then said he thinks a caudal epidural is the next thing to try as the pain is being transmitted down my legs in the sciatic nerves. Raising questions. It didn’t occur to me until we left but one of the questions he asked was about the MRI that they did in March and …
Pain has become an old friend to me, it’s the kind of friend that sucks you dry, takes your energy and leaves you feeling like crap. Yes pain and I are well acquainted. I have written about my friend before, many times. How it has impacted our sex lives and my life in general. I’ve talked about the Medial branch nerve block – test procedure, the actual procedures, and after a few months pain free, the eventual its return. Chronic Pain. Since 2008 my life has been controlled my …
We have a silentnight miracoil mattress. It wasn’t cheap (in my opinion) costing just over £400 and it’s a heck of a lot more comfortable than the cheap mattress we had before. We have had this for 2 years now and as my back has its ups and downs I have found that I am waking up each morning full of aches and pains. What I have noticed recently, is that when we stay at a premier inn, the mattress is really comfortable. I mean …
There’s a new cream that the consultant has given me to help reduce inflammation and pain in the joints… My back and my knees are the two places that we apply the cream twice a day. I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it before it’s called Capsaicin. Capsaicin is taken from chilli peppers. It works mainly by reducing Substance P, a pain transmitter in your nerves. Results from RCTs assessing its role in treating osteoarthritis suggest that it can be effective in reducing pain and tenderness in …
Well- not that I went anywhere particularly- but I mean the consultant has put me back on Tramadol slow release and once again my pain is manageable. I’m also awake! Actually that’s the only down side…. for me tramadol isn’t a sedative, it’s a stimulant. It doesn’t affect everyone this way just a small percentage, and lucky me, I’m one! Unfortunately this means I struggle to sleep…. I take a lower dose overnight but until I get used to it again I’m struggling to sleep. …
Maintaining a healthy mental state, is quite a challenge, at least it is for me. I take medication daily which works well to stabilise my mood. I’ve been medicated for depression and anxiety since 2005, essentially 18 months after my dad passed away. I had a full blown breakdown in 2005. I stopped working. I stopped functioning. I stopped doing pretty much everything. I spent 3 years getting better. I spent 3 years learning to deal with rough seas. It wasn’t all doom and gloom. In fact …
This blog started as an online extension/version of a written journal that I began shortly after Mr H and I started down the route of Dom and sub. One of the online community/sites we had joined SubMrs had an number of article/resources about journaling and communication and I decided I would use this medium to record my thoughts. Mr H would read it and this would then open a discussion. A way to communicate We didn’t stay with that particular site long. I found that …