But I don’t feel right. I usually feel calm and content. But instead I feel sad, disconnected, distant. Although S1 headed off to London and we “in theory” had our old routines back things just don’t feel right. That’s not to say MrH and I haven’t played because we have. We have tested the replacement wand. And I’ve been allowed to suck MrH’s cock before bed time twice this week. He allows this for a time and then he will instruct me to stop and fuck …
Sexy Sounds (FFTF)
A lot of the bloggers I follow regularly do a FFTF post, but I’ve often read the prompt or questions and struggled to think of how I could answer. When I saw Rebel and Missy’s posts, and read the prompt, I decided that’s this week I wanted to take part…. I actually think I have something to say lol! I guess I’m a moaner, groaner, sigher, and “maker of very odd noises” during play… I make a whole host of sexy sounds – In fact I can …
Guest blog post on The Safeword Club
Check out my post on The Safeword Club this week…. Emotionally Bound where I talk about my difficulties in expressing kinky desires.
Held together with superglue and tape…
Sometimes life pulls us in a direction we don’t like. Sometimes we drift like a ship without an anchor. Sometimes we talk utter rubbish…. Right now I’m really struggling (again). I’ve been faced with behaviour at work that I’m not comfortable with. A level of deceit that I don’t like. A certain amount of aggression that frightens me and some unreasonable attitudes that have caused me many sleepless nights and anxious days. MrH wants me to look for another job, everyone I’ve discussed it in detail with, …
The bump, the smack and the “O”
Sounds like the title to a children’s book doesn’t it? Well actually it just about sums up last Friday. It started with a car accident… well incident they say now don’t they? Some PC crap gone mental… but in this case it was an accident. Someone reversed into my car. Everyone seemed ok just damage to the cars. So onto work I went. My day progressed as normal, plenty of sweet drinks and then mid afternoon I came over funny. My colleague says I just …
Rope and A flogging
Last night we had a rare few hours with the boys out of the house. Mr H decided to take advantage of this freedom and after practicing a rope harness he’d been working on, he decided to give me a flogging. Flogging inspiration. You may recall we went to a workshop by Aemillia Hawk at the Townhouse last weekend, and a few weeks ago we were lucky enough to be invited to a kink event where we saw our first public scenes, which also happened …
Please Sir – play with me?
I struggle to ask MrH for things. Not like can I buy or can I eat, I mean sexual acts I want, and when I have chatted to other subs this seems to be a common theme. I think there are 2 reasons for this. 1. Embarrassment or shame. 2. Fighting with the idea that I shouldn’t ask as a submissive. The second is easier to argue out. MrH tells me he’s not a mind reader, and if I don’t tell him he doesn’t know. …
TAT2 – our first event
Yesterday MrH and I went to our first event. It was held at Townhouse (where we attend munches) and was organised by a group from Glasgow, that our dear friend Lady Chamoix knows. It was Lady Chamoix who arranged for us to attend, partly because I wanted to meet her Slave. He and I have chatted online but it is nice to meet face to face. If you read my blog you’ll know I took great care with my appearance for the event. I had …
One more sleep
Tomorrow we’re going to our first BDSM event. I’m getting hair and makeup done and I’ve had my nails manicured and my brows waxed and tinted today. I’m about 45% nervous 55% excited. Oh and I’m so horny again! Work has settled into place this week and I’ve been able to relax into a routine. That has lessened my daily stress and this in turn has allowed me to bring my focus back to MrH. Naturally that leads to me being wanton and horny. Yesterday …
I’m gonna show you Crazy!
It’s been one year and a bit since we became a D/s couple. I’m happier than I’ve ever been. I’m also more terrified. I’m so terrified that it will end. Frightened it’s been a wonderful illusion. Scared the passion will evaporate. So scared it makes me a little crazy. For years our relationship drifted along. We were happy enough, and we had good sex. Not often mind you – everyday life got in the way. We were tired. We didn’t make the effort. My self …