The prompt this week for F4FT is the selfie…. a modern phenomenon (at least I think so) as before the age of front facing cameras (and camera phones) a selfie was a virtual impossibility!
With a traditional camera, (you know the ones with a film inside not a memory card??) trying to take a photo of yourself meant guessing if you were in frame and then waiting until it was developed to see if you were successful. More often than not you weren’t…
I have had a love/hate relationship with photographs for as long as I can remember. I love taking them- I hate being in them!
When cameras became an everyday part of the mobile phone my children were already at school. I don’t have many pictures of S1 as a baby because I was a single mum. By the time I found the camera whatever cute moment had occurred was over. S2 was school age when I got my first camera phone and I was able to take more photos but the quality was poor. I remember buying a digital camera with 2 megapixels and being amazed at the quality. My new phone has a rear camera with 12 megapixel and a front camera with 8 megapixel. Technology moves at an alarming rate.
But I digress…
I didn’t start taking selfies until a few years ago. I took a few photos to send to MrH when I’d had my hair done, but I hated how they looked, how I looked.
When I started losing weight and was stuck at home on bed rest, boredom made me brave. I began taking pictures and sending them to MrH. MrH’s replies made me see myself differently. I began to see myself as attractive. I began to think I didn’t need to be as thin as I was in my early 20’s to be attractive. In fact I began to feel more attractive than I ever had.
The introduction of D/s and then our forays online (especially my blog) meant I began to post photos online. The positive feedback further supported the theory that I was perhaps still attractive.
Now, I have to say I haven’t regretted any of the selfies I have sent, because I have only ever sent them to one person and the ones I post online have been carefully selected, but I do know that there’s many people who have sent pictures that they have regretted.
All I can say is I am glad that I am in a committed relationship and that I can trust MrH (and my followers) with my photos..and to that end, here is a selfie just for this post..
This post is inspired by the Food 4 Thought Topic Selfie, to see more posts inspired by the topic click HERE.