Exploring Kink as a Monogamous Married Couple
I could write in detail about our most recent hotel stay. Oh yes I could tell you about that wonderful night, and day. I could tell you about the delicious food, the lovely rooms and the delightful view from the balcony. I could tell you how I was bound and pleasured. I could tell you about the seemly endless minutes of forced orgasms where time stopped and all I could do was feel, and breathe. I could tell you about Sirs hand spanking me. About …
Last night when MrH was in the bath I sent him a message asking if I could get out a toy. He replied that I could and asked me to video call him so he could watch me masturbate. Unfortunately I didn’t see the instruction to video call him but I did get out the toy. I picked promises and applied some lube. I began lied on my back… slowly using the vibe… deciding to change things I knelt up and turned to face the …
Today we went on a bike ride… and I mean motorbike not push bike…. I don’t pedal 😂 We haven’t been out much together and when we do I usually take the lead. When I first passed my test I went out riding with a group. MrH didn’t like that and so I went alone. The second year of riding, I had a hysterectomy in the July and so I was unable to ride for 3 months afterwards. By the time I was recovered the weather …
MrH and I don’t really celebrate birthdays or anniversaries. I’ll be honest I don’t think you know what dates are going to be important until afterwards and I don’t keep a diary so I can’t always look back and pinpoint special or specific moments. For example, I know I first met MrH before my 21st birthday in October. I couldn’t give you an exact date if my life depended on it. I know the first time he came to my house was a Wednesday but I don’t …
Today I went into hospital for a diagnostic procedure. I’ve have back pain. I’ve had back pain since 2008. I woke up one day in much pain I couldn’t walk. I had sciatic pain. My left leg kept going numb. The doctors just gave me pain meds. After 18 months i was referred to rheumatology. I was told it could be a few things. Learn to live with it. I was 35. I had access to a private medical insurance and they arranged an MRI. …
MrH has been my Dominant for 9 months now and over the last few days I have been prompted to reflect on our journey by a few other blog posts. In short it’s been wonderful. Every area of our relationship has been touched by the D/s dynamic and made stronger, more passionate, more intimate and more loving. I don’t want you to think that our relationship/marriage was in trouble, boring or lacking anything before we introduced D/s. It wasn’t. We loved each other and made …
MrH sent me a brief email with instructions for today: Hello sweetgirl. 1. This weekend before play starts you will be inspected. You will ensure you are smooth shaven and clean. Your hair in a plait. 2. There will be some.photos taken (possibly videos) so make sure you pack accordingly(body stockings. Suspenders and such like). If there are particular photos you would like let me know. 3. Ensure all equipment is charged/batteries available. 4. For our evening meal you will need a dress or skirt. …
If you are a regular reader of my ramblings you may remember I recently started a new job, and that on the first day of the job, my new boss contacted a friend who was looking for a bookkeeper and suggested I could help him too… On Friday this gentleman came to the office with his paperwork to meet me. It transpires that his previous bookkeeper had become unable to cope and as such the books were 4 months behind. This put a rush on …
This post isn’t an easy one to write. But I’m going to do it anyway. Because I think I need to. Since we started in D/s we’ve explored so much and grown so much but in other areas I struggle. One of these is talking to MrH about intimate things. Talking about my body, what I fantasize about. When I do I hide my face, I feel shame and embarrassment. And I wish I didn’t. I can write it without issue. But I’d like to …
What depression means to me. I posted yesterday that I’m not doing so well. I think that may be an understatement, but rather than prattle on about that, I thought instead I’d share instead what depression means to me because I believe that everyone experiences it differently. I believe depression is a black hole. Once it gets you in its grip it slowly strips parts of you away. Your sense of security. Your confidence. Your happiness. Your self worth. Your ability to feel joy. Your …