I reached out and touched him. When he’s naked I’m allowed to touch without first seeking permission. I stroked his cock, gently. I leaned closer, kissing him, and when he didn’t tell me to stop, I took him in my mouth. He grew hard, and sighed. I continued to please him. Hearing him moan with pleasure, encouraging me to continue. Now I admit I wasn’t taking him in as deep as normal, which I know he loves, because of my nausea which I’ve been suffering. …
Reflecting on…. life
Over the last few weeks there have been a number of discussions between Mr H and myself, about where we are, where we seem to be heading, and where we want to head. These have led to a few realisations that in fact we need to change direction because we are heading where we don’t want to go, falling into the trap of potentially doing things because we think we should not because we want to. Which direction do you go? One of these direction changes …
Plugged
I told you to watch this space. MrH has gone to the allotment. I’m sewing. Before he left he took my hand and asked me to come with me. He took me upstairs, pulled down my leggings, told me to spread my cheeks and inserted the butt plug. If it gets uncomfortable I have to message him. I love it when Mr H makes me wear the butt plugs, it feels so naughty.
Our holiday
Our big holiday got downsized. We didn’t think my back could do it comfortably… maybe next year after the treatment.. if I’m pain free it will be so much better…. anyway… we decided to have some mini breaks. Yesterday we arrived at our favourite hotel. We’re here for 2 nights. 😁 I’m not going to do a full post now, I’ll do it when we’re home as I want to take my time.. this is just a little update, or teaser if you like.. Friday …
One year …..
One year ago today I asked MrH to consider adding elements of BDSM to our relationship; primarily D/s. One year ago today MrH turned off the lights, spread my arms and legs and said, “don’t move“. One year ago today I had the most amazing sexual experience that I could remember to that point. (It must be pointed out that in the following months there have been many many amazing experiences, MrH is very creative, and while this night is a special memory because it …
Anniversary
MrH and I don’t really celebrate birthdays or anniversaries. I’ll be honest I don’t think you know what dates are going to be important until afterwards and I don’t keep a diary so I can’t always look back and pinpoint special or specific moments. For example, I know I first met MrH before my 21st birthday in October. I couldn’t give you an exact date if my life depended on it. I know the first time he came to my house was a Wednesday but I don’t …
Reflections on HisLordship’s post Dominance up close and personal – day 8
In his post today my Dominance up close and personal in 20 days – daysolicitous. 8 HisLordship discussed communication, and how he and Missy talk each Saturday morning. They make that effort and he notes how he has become more verbose in discussing his emotions and thoughts. This got me thinking….. When was the last time Mr H and I “talked” about our D/s? You know, an in depth, two way discussion, and I’m struggling to remember a time when it wasn’t a question I’d …
“Subspace”
According to one of the blogger’s I follow (Furcissy), there used to be a set word used to describe the amazing feeling you get during intense play. For me I like to say subspace, because I feel I float away, I’m weightless, away from myself, feeling everything but so entirely well… amazing. This is different to me than what I describe as my submissive mindset/mental state, which is simply feeling submissive/willing to submit. Missing Subspace. It’s been a while since we had any play that …
Our first munch
On Tuesday we went to our first Munch that is held at a local BDSM / swingers club The Townhouse. It takes us 50 minutes to drive there and we were both nervous, uncertain what to expect. Arriving at the munch. We arrived and met with some friends who took us in and introduced us. This is one of the better ways to goto a munch, as the people there know you are serious about the lifestyle, and understand how the members value confidentiality. The …
The Cane
I asked Mr H if he would try his cane out on Friday night, and he kindly said he would think about it. There was a time when I would have tried to persuade Mr H to give me a definite answer, but I have learned that while I can ask things of Mr H, I must then leave the decision to him and accept it. In fact I nearly didn’t ask at all. But, I felt in need of something to take me out …