Exploring Kink as a Monogamous Married Couple
There is one thing that truly frightens me, an incomprehensible paralyzing fear, and that is that Mr H will leave me.There have been many things (fears) in my life that have given me sleepless nights. Some have passed with time, some rear their heads time and again. Spiders It’s a cliche right? To be frightened by spiders… I mean in a silly, heart pounding, panic sort of way. Once I see the thing I can’t take my eyes off it, because the only thing more …
I use my blog to get my thoughts down on virtual paper and stop them from swirling around, my own version of the spanish inquisition, where I interrogate myself endlessly. Things have been rough for Mr H and I recently. Not in our relationship or in D/s terms, no, in fact I think that has helped us to weather it. This weeks Food 4 Thought prompt asks why do you write? Writing helps me process. I also hope that perhaps in some way the ups …
Over the last 2 years our rituals have changed quite a bit, although the format has remained the same the words and actions have changed to suit our needs at the time. In the beginning, for our morning and night collar exchange I would always be kneeling. This collar exchange is our most ritualistic activity. Every now and then Mr H would tell me to stay standing so he didn’t have to bend down. This became more frequent until eventually the kneeling became a thing …
I am so grateful to everyone who follows me. There are 333 wordpress followers, 18 email only followers, and 549 on Twitter. Assuming that the same people follow me on both Twitter and WordPress I’m still blown away that over 500 people think what I write is worth reading! A fellow blogger raised a point recently about validation, and how she gets really fed up when very few people comment on her posts. Now she also acknowledges that validation isn’t actually something she aimed for …
I have worked hard to become more authentic. I used to present a face to the world that I thought they wanted to see. My mum raised me to be a confident outgoing little girl. She didn’t care if that’s what I was comfortable with, it was what she wanted. I grew up and became a teenager, in a dysfunctional home, and I then had to present a new face, that of the perfect home. There’s a uk show called Keeping up Appearances and my …
The prompt this week for F4FT is the selfie…. a modern phenomenon (at least I think so) as before the age of front facing cameras (and camera phones) a selfie was a virtual impossibility! With a traditional camera, (you know the ones with a film inside not a memory card??) trying to take a photo of yourself meant guessing if you were in frame and then waiting until it was developed to see if you were successful. More often than not you weren’t… I have …
The first movie I saw that actually turned me on was Don Juan de Marco starring Jonny Depp, Marlon Brando and Faye Dunnaway. Here’s a little clip of Jonny in action… (you’re welcome 😉) I’d never seen a movie where the aim of the sexual encounters seemed to be about the women’s enjoyment… I watched that movie over and over again, eventually I bought it. It certainly sparked a few fantasies at the time. Limited imagination I haven’t really seen any other movies that have …
There’s a song I found years ago, and loved instantly, on a list songs that Stephanie Meyers says she listened to while writing the Twilight Saga. The song, by Matchbox 20 Unwell resonated with me then and still does to this day although MrH thinks it’s a strange song. There’s link to the video on YouTube at the bottom of the post. ”I’m not crazy I’m just a little unwell “ Having lived through my breakdown it seemed to me that this song understood what I felt …
This weeks topic for Food for Thought Friday is communication, something I have written about many times before: Lost, 5th Feb 2019 Maintenance Wednesday’s, 14th Feb 2019 It’s good to talk, 22nd Feb 2019 Wednesday Night Chat, 17th April 2019 To name a few, although many of my posts reiterate constantly that communication is essential in D/s. From safewords to setting limits without honest communication any D/s relationship is likely to be on unsteady or unsafe ground. Practice what you preach Now I know I’ve …