Memory lane

My dad passed away suddenly in 2003, from a massive heart attack, and I know I’ve talked about this before but, about a year or so after he passed I woke up from a vivid dream, sobbing.  Now I don’t know if you or even if I believe it’s possible that loved ones who have died can come and visit you in your dreams, but that night, well you decide…… I was dancing with my dad, like I did when I was little,  standing on …

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So you want to be a submissive wife?

Did you read or watch 50 shades and think that’s hot?  Has your husband patted you on the bottom and you thought I would like more of that? Let me tell you now, in real life being a submissive wife (or partner) is not like the books or movies, it is much, much better. Most of the couples I have interacted with all seem to start the same way, the potential submissive wife has broached the subject with their partner. You can read about the …

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Awkward!!!

I’ve had many awkward moments in my life, and not all of them linked to kink, in fact most of them come from my vanilla life. Kids. There was the time T walked into the bedroom carrying a very large kitchen knife and an apple (he was 3).  Mr H and I were having sex, and he wanted the apple peeled. Mr H calmly peeled the apple and T went back downstairs to watch his movie. Then there was the time when T was about …

Making Memories

Mr H likes making things, although he is never fully satisfied with the outcome I think the things he creates are beautiful.  Within a Kink context, MrH has made me collars, jewelry, accessories and he has made himself impact toys. When he starts a new project he gets out his crafts box, working away and concentrating.  I can see the calm enjoyment settle over him and the happiness when the project is done.  He has made things with paracord and chainmaille (aluminium and Sterling silver). …

Bloody Useless

This morning when I got up, I was so tired and in so much pain I cried.  Can you imagine that? You open your eyes and as soon as you move pain hits you. Chronic pain, the pain I have, is I think something very few people fully understand. Understanding Chronic Pain. “Have you taken some pain killers?” and “We all have back ache sometimes.” Yes, I have actually heard these sentences.  My mum is one of the worst offenders.  She resides deep in the …

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Do as you are told

“I think it’s time you sucked my penis” MrH said.  He had turned the TV off and was laid naked on the bed.  I moved towards him and paused I did want to suck his cock but I was still wearing my day collar. “Are you going to do my collar first?” I asked. “I think you should do as you’re told,” he replied firmly, “and suck my penis.” Dominance I moved to a comfortable position, I fidgeted a little.  I was taken back, he …

We have a lot to talk about

Every Wednesday night Mr H and I don’t watch TV we talk. I might have a list of things I want to talk about, or we may just talk about our week.  It is simply one evening where the focus is on us and our relationship. On Wednesday morning before I went to work, I made a comment regarding the day and it being chat night, and Mr H responded, “yes it is and we have a lot to talk about.” I spent all day …

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Tell Me About: Anal

I admit I love anal sex.  It puts me into a mental place that I love but for various reasons it isn’t something we do often.  Probably because of that it remains something that is very effective in putting me into a submissive space. Overpower Me There is something quite primal and Dominant about anal sex.  The possibility for pain, the resistance of the body against intrusion, the need to actively surrender to his possession is something which I find highly erotic, and that’s before …

Chronic pain

Caudal Epidural

Today I had an appointment at the hospital to discuss the next plan for pain relief. For once we were in and out quickly, the consultant asked a couple of questions and then said he thinks a caudal epidural is the next thing to try as the pain is being transmitted down my legs in the sciatic nerves. Raising questions. It didn’t occur to me until we left but one of the questions he asked was about the MRI that they did in March and …

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Kiss me

When Mr H kisses me, deliberately, thoughtfully, I go weak at the knees.  Sometimes we exchange the familiar daily kiss, and they have their own magic, but when he takes his time, hmmm those are the special erotic ones. The way he makes me feel. Sometimes, he will stroke my face, taking my chin in his fingers and tipping my face to his. Beginning gently, becoming stronger and deeper.  His hands moving down my body to hold me tight.  I usually sway against him, clinging to …