Exploring Kink as a Monogamous Married Couple
There are times when I feel like I ‘need’ Mr H to push me into feeling submissive. This usually coincides with times when our bedroom play has been limited. I lose the close connection to Mr H, instead I feel distant and disconnected as if I am protecting myself from a perceived or expected hurt. Background: Our children are not children anymore at 24 and 19 (sorry for those followers who already know that) and Mr H and I have no intention of them being …
Every few weeks Mr H has to provide on call cover, and that week he has to work on the Saturday in the office. I hate that week. I miss him. I feel lost. I’m without focus and I get anxious. The level of separation anxiety I am experiencing is not particularly healthy, and when I’m anxious, I eat. This anxiety is in direct contradiction to the general improvement I have felt in my mood, that I wrote about here. This week I decided to …
* #Submissive Fiction * #Erotica * #Flash Fiction * I approached the reception desk nervously and waited for the receptionist to look up. This was not our usual date night activity. “Hello. Welcome to The Groves, are you checking in?” she asked pleasantly with a welcoming smile. I passed her the envelope. I did not speak. She took it and looked at it with a puzzled expression. The envelope had ‘FAO Reception’ written on it and so she opened it, glancing at me as she …
This morning I got my journal out and looked back over some of my early posts. One of the things I noticed most was the emotional turmoil I experienced in those early weeks, and how we dealt with it, or more to the point how we struggled to deal with it. The rollercoaster of emotions took us by surprise and we didn’t communicate enough. Emotional rollercoaster. Suddenly I needed contact with Mr H. I needed to be near him, even following him around the house. …
I don’t profess to be a professional writer of poetry but sometimes I get these rhymes that buzz around in my head almost demanding to be written down, and this was one that happened about Mr H when our D/s was new. I hope you like it, my Ode to MrH aka I love it. An Ode To MrH I love it when you tie me up, I love it when you tease. I love it when you stroke my breasts My nipples firmly squeeze …
One of my favourite meals is beef stew. I grew up on it… It is simple to make, it’s hearty and comforting.. you throw everything in a large pan and bring to the boil then simmer for a few hours. Add some Yorkshire puddings or dumplings and some crusty fresh bread and … well yummy!!! But, why am I blogging about food? Well, I’m making beef stew for tea tonight and it got me thinking… I think in some ways I can see our first …
During a light hearted online group discussion yesterday I typed ‘rolls eyes’ in response to a comment by one of the Dom’s (who from here on I will refer to as MrX because using Dom all the time reads quite aggressively). Now MrX is aware that Mr H has forbidden eye rolling at him, as it is disrespectful. MrX commented that he would inform Mr H of my eye rolling. Before I go any further [insert Meatloaf song 😂 ] I want to make it …
There’s a song by Faith Hill that I absolutely adore called The Way You Love Me. When Mr H touches me, the way I feel his touch, is something I will never truly be able to describe to him but I wish I could. Here is the video so you can listen/watch it for yourself. One of the reasons I love this song so much, is that I think it would be cool if Mr H could feel the way he makes me feel. And …
I have this bad habit of questioning Mr H’s decisions. Not during a scene – but in our everyday lives, and in doing so I am challenging his authority over and over again. Let me give you an example.. Challenging Authority On Monday it was frosty and we have 1 car (2 motorbikes) and Mr H tends to ride to work. When it’s frosty we leave the bikes at home and I drop Mr H at work (he starts before me). So on Sunday he …
Yesterday I spent all day trying to find the courage to ask Mr H, my Dominant, to help me with a bad habit I have formed. My ability to speak openly and honestly is, I think, improving but I do still struggle with the idea that I am ‘being silly, being a bother’ etc and I often end up upset. Asking your Dominant for help I’ve found that recently I’m waking up during the night and, because of some early childhood conditioning, I invariably end …