Exploring Kink as a Monogamous Married Couple
In my earliest recollections when I was asked “what do you want to be when you grow up?” I would answer “a mum.” I would play games in the playground pretending to push a pram (it was invisible) with my friends who were all pushing their prams too. When I got a little older, my mum gave me some Mills & Boon books to read. She liked medical romances and I soon decided I wanted to be “a nurse.” There was a slight flaw in …
I’ve made many, many, many mistakes in my life and I’m sure I will make more… some big and some small. Getting married at 18 to the “wrong” man – as you do at 18 – was a doozy. Now I don’t mean that I regret having my eldest, because I don’t, I was already pregnant when we were encouraged to get married so I would still have had my little boy, I just wouldn’t have had to go through a divorce. Opportunities to Learn …
I’ve been medicated for quite some time in one form or another. In 2005 when I had my breakdown I was started on antidepressants and I think I’ve been fortunate in that they have never affected my sex drive or ability to orgasm. I know not everyone is as lucky. When my back first started to cause me severe pain and the drs started to put me onto pain medication things did begin to change. The medications made me sleepy or made me feel high. …
Following on from my post Horny as Hell I feel I need to explain myself… the post may have come across as if I am unhappy with my lot and as if Mr H isn’t making me happy. That isn’t exactly correct. I am happy with Mr H. I just struggle with my expectations and reality. I like being submissive. It took years to find that was my happy state. What I want is for Mr H to control that. I want to feel submissive …
No, I need a fuck. I want to feel Sir deep inside me. Sometimes the need becomes so acute my whole body aches for him. My pussy feels empty (which of course it is!) but you know what I mean- right? MrH has been poorly so He hasn’t felt like playing. He hasn’t been able to breathe so he hasn’t kissed me. When we don’t play for a while I have one of two reactions. Either I get super horny or I disconnect. Sometimes I get …
Maintaining a healthy mental state, is quite a challenge, at least it is for me. I take medication daily which works well to stabilise my mood. I’ve been medicated for depression and anxiety since 2005, essentially 18 months after my dad passed away. I had a full blown breakdown in 2005. I stopped working. I stopped functioning. I stopped doing pretty much everything. I spent 3 years getting better. I spent 3 years learning to deal with rough seas. It wasn’t all doom and gloom. In fact …
This blog started as an online extension/version of a written journal that I began shortly after Mr H and I started down the route of Dom and sub. One of the online community/sites we had joined SubMrs had an number of article/resources about journaling and communication and I decided I would use this medium to record my thoughts. Mr H would read it and this would then open a discussion. A way to communicate We didn’t stay with that particular site long. I found that …
Things have been a little off lately. I’m so tired, a side effect of the amitriptyline, I come home from work, eat, and go to bed. MrH is suffering too. He just isn’t quite himself, and I know the situation must be hard for him. He’s worried about my back. He’s having to do so much extra. He drives me to work and then doubles back to go to work himself. He works through his lunch so he can leave early to come pick me up. …
Last Friday I went to see my GP. I had booked the day off work so it was a good opportunity to go and review the medications. Since my hospital stay early in April I have been taking regular doses of Codeine as well as Paracetamol and I am now taking Naproxen (a nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory). The Naproxen has helped with joint stiffness in my shoulders and knees but not with the sciatic pain. The Codeine has helped with pain but unfortunately about 50 mins after …
There’s a line in the movie The Ugly Truth, Gerard Butler’s character ‘Mike‘ is telling Katherine Heigl’s character ‘Abbey’ the rules a woman should follow to get a guy interested in her and he says “a fake laugh is like a fake orgasm” “A fake orgasm is good?” Abbey asks. He says, “A fake orgasm is better than no orgasm.” “A fake orgasm is no orgasm,” she replies. Mikes response is, “Only to you. You’re not the only one in the room you know. Don’t …