We had a wonderful time at the hotel. MrH blindfolded me and kissed me. He led me to the bed and had me shuffle back. I felt myself move over the waterproof mat so he’d put that over the bed. He passed me the Doxy. “Masturbate for me,” he said. I hesitated, not because of fear, or embarrassment, but because I didn’t know how to turn it on. I told him so. He put my fingers on the buttons and I spent a few moments …
Bliss
I’m in heaven…..Seriously. We got home 6 hours ago (it’s now 16:15) and I’m still floating on a high. The crash will not be pretty. But right now. Damn! I feel spectacular….. The day started well, MrH allowed me to suck his cock, then he used my pussy and gave me his cum. So, really I should have said, the day started very well! Then at 12 we left to complete a few errands before we headed to the hotel. We bought some sandwiches to …
Forced Orgasm Heaven
This morning our youngest went to help out my mum and we were given a couple of hours alone. Normally I would be winking and nudging MrH all morning about this “alone time” and what we might do in it, but today, for some strange reason I didn’t. I say strange because the child had interrupted play on Friday night and I have been sooo horny since then. MrH took child out and I was sewing. I decided to repair a seam rip in a …
Can’t quite put my finger on it…..
But I don’t feel right.  I usually feel calm and content. But instead I feel sad, disconnected, distant. Although S1 headed off to London and we “in theory” had our old routines back things just don’t feel right. That’s not to say MrH and I haven’t played because we have. We have tested the replacement wand. And I’ve been allowed to suck MrH’s cock before bed time twice this week. He allows this for a time and then he will instruct me to stop and fuck …
Sexy Sounds (FFTF)
A lot of the bloggers I follow regularly do a FFTF post, but I’ve often read the prompt or questions and struggled to think of how I could answer. When I saw Rebel and Missy’s posts, and read the prompt, I decided that’s this week I wanted to take part…. I actually think I have something to say lol!  I guess I’m a moaner, groaner, sigher, and “maker of very odd noises” during play… I make a whole host of sexy sounds – In fact I can …
Please Sir – play with me?
I struggle to ask MrH for things. Not like can I buy or can I eat, I mean sexual acts I want, and when I have chatted to other subs this seems to be a common theme.  I think there are 2 reasons for this. 1. Embarrassment or shame. 2. Fighting with the idea that I shouldn’t ask as a submissive. The second is easier to argue out. MrH tells me he’s not a mind reader, and if I don’t tell him he doesn’t know. …
Our holiday- continued.
The story so far…. (see part one) Having been stripped naked, Mr H ordered me to suck his cock maintaining eye contact (a new challenge) before sending me to the bedroom and telling me to spread my ass cheeks. And now the conclusion… Sir had decided on some anal play, and he applied lots of lube and inserted a butt toy.. at this point I had no idea which one. It was our new toy… There is an image of it in the slideshow below. Anal treat. …
Hotel Stay
Mr H and I went away last night for some play time. Yesterday morning I received an email from him with his instructions. I was to prepare myself for all types of play. Pack toys and clothes. Buy some Bluetooth headphones. Mr H said he planned to start the evening with inspection. Preparation for play. He would be taking some photos, and doing some rope work. I would be masturbating for him, sucking his cock and being used as his fuck toy. Of course this …
Fear
I shared a post a few weeks ago about squirting orgasms in “Overcoming Embarrassment” and I thought I needed to write a follow up.  While I spoke in this earlier post about being embarrassed that I had wet the bed. While I have experienced these orgasms through masturbation I haven’t during play with MrH. This has prompted me to wonder… Why? I believe it’s because I’m ashamed and embarrassed. I believe I hold back frightened that MrH would be disgusted if he were covered or touched …
Reflecting….
MrH has been my Dominant for 9 months now and over the last few days I have been prompted to reflect on our journey by a few other blog posts. In short it’s been wonderful. Every area of our relationship has been touched by the D/s dynamic and made stronger, more passionate, more intimate and more loving. I don’t want you to think that our relationship/marriage was in trouble, boring or lacking anything before we introduced D/s. It wasn’t. We loved each other and made …