blow job

Showing Sir my love

This morning when I woke up, I snuggled under the covers to worship Mr H’s cock.  My aim wasn’t to give a blow job, I know from experience that most often Mr H doesn’t want to cum in a morning, usually because he needs to relieve himself. I began with gentle kisses, lightly licking, which I know he likes, then gently taking him into my mouth. I slowly moved caressing his shaft, swirling my tongue, and just maintaining a nice slow pace. He allowed me to …

depression

Black Hole

What depression means to me. I posted yesterday that I’m not doing so well. I think that may be an understatement, but rather than prattle on about that, I thought instead I’d share instead what depression means to me because I believe that everyone experiences it differently. I believe depression is a black hole. Once it gets you in its grip it slowly strips parts of you away. Your sense of security. Your confidence. Your happiness. Your self worth. Your ability to feel joy. Your …

munch

Our first munch

On Tuesday we went to our first Munch that is held at a local BDSM / swingers club The Townhouse. It takes us 50 minutes to drive there and we were both nervous, uncertain what to expect. Arriving at the munch. We arrived and met with some friends who took us in and introduced us. This is one of the better ways to goto a munch, as the people there know you are serious about the lifestyle, and understand how the members value confidentiality. The …

cane

The Cane

I asked Mr H if he would try his cane out on Friday night, and he kindly said he would think about it. There was a time when I would have tried to persuade Mr H to give me a definite answer, but I have learned that while I can ask things of Mr H, I must then leave the decision to him and accept it. In fact I nearly didn’t ask at all. But, I felt in need of something to take me out …

rules

Following the new rules

It’s been 3 days now since Mr H decided to issue me with new rules. They seem simple enough as for the most part they are about me taking care of myself (exercise and diet), making sure I don’t spend too much money (no eBay or Amazon purchases without permission), and, dressing in a way that makes Mr H happy (matching underwear or no knickers). Well so far so good. I’ve eaten inline with the Slimming World rules, I’ve completed my exercise, worn my matching …

musings cuddle

Sub Drop

I am experiencing sub-drop and Mr H is taking good care of me. He is always my protector, looking out for me, and taking care of me, so after our hotel stay we knew sub drop would be a possibility and have been watchful for it to hit. One of my favourite articles on sub-drop by Jennifer Bene, for anyone who reads this who has never experienced it I urge you to read this regardless of if you are a Dom(me) or sub. Each person …

kinky fun

Kinky Hotel Fun 23rd Dec 2017

Well actually it’s the morning of Christmas Eve. We have just woken up and made coffees so I decided to update my blog before we get out of bed with all the kinky fun we have had so far. Mr H and I arrived at the hotel around 3pm, and after checking in we went up to our room. Mr H unpacked his equipment, laying it out where he could see it easily and we fitted the underbed restraints. Mr H said that he thought …

submissive mindset

Instructions from MrH

We are going away in a few days, for an overnight hotel stay. These breaks are not just great fun but an opportunity to relax and play in a way we are unable to do at home because of our adult children. They provide an opportunity to recharge our dynamic and my submissive mindset. Hello my Sweetgirl, As we are a day away from our alone time I thought I would send you your instructions. My plan for Saturday will be based around the following …

discipline

Bejeweled

A short story featuring D/s, a butt plug, vibrators, and oral sex. Sir has sent me to the bedroom. I am to undress and bend over the bed. He has promised to make me feel better, he knows my mindset has drifted of late and I am not feeling the same connection to him. He is making tea and I don’t know how long I am to wait, but I follow his instructions. When I hear him on the stairs my breath quickens. Sir has …

musings cuddle

Sunday Musings

Another week is over. I’m snuggled on the sofa with Mr H while he watches football, and I feel safe and loved. My mind drifts organically as I lay here musing on the week and of course on Mr H and our relationship. Musings. This morning I mentioned to MrH that I had wondered if he had ever considered having me wear the but plug during the day on weekends or after work. He replied that he had thought many things over the last 5 …