Exploring Kink as a Monogamous Married Couple
It is Friday today, and I am laying in bed wondering what is going to happen next. Yesterday’s appointment with the specialist was strange and it has created new challenges. I am going to have to work hard to keep my thoughts positive and not get too down. Thoughts on Consultants We went to see the consultant and one of the major hospitals in the area. I have only seen three consultants in my life who have actually “examined” me, and that makes me cross …
A while ago, I did a strip tease for Mr H. I practiced for a week and I really enjoyed doing it. He grinned and got an erection, the perfect appreciation. When I am feeling a little flirty and playful I will sometimes ask Mr H, “do you like what you see?” “Oh yes!” Is my favourite verbal answer, but when he runs his hands over my body, when his cock gets harder, that’s my all time favourite response, that’s appreciation that can’t be faked. …
We have talked a lot following my post Hairy Pussy and Prioritising Intimacy. Earlier today I asked if he had a plan for this afternoon, I confess I was really hoping his answer wasn’t going to be doing the laundry. It wasn’t. I plan to fuck you stupid, was his reply. The plan in action. When we had eaten lunch Mr H instructed me to get naked and I obliged. He put my play/sleep collar on and told me to turn around. He pulled me …
Yesterday’s post Hairy Pussy resulted in a long discussion between Mr H and myself. Probably one that was very overdue, well there is no probably about it really. I have written about how we have not made the effort we should, and again and again said we would, but we haven’t. We have not focused on ourselves, we have not been prioritising intimacy. Not really, and definitely not consistently. Life gets in the way. 2019 was not a great year for us. My back pain …
One of my rules is that I am supposed to be shaved every day, ready to be fucked. It isn’t like it is too much to ask is it? Mr H likes to eat pussy and, he doesn’t want to be faced with a hairy pussy. I can understand that because I prefer MrH to be trimmed too, not shaved, just trimmed you understand. I like stubble on his face and short hair around his cock. Longer hairs tend to make me gag more. Lazy …
I am not very good at self promotion. It’s one thing I hated when I was self employed, and it is also the thing I struggle with most when it comes to blogging, the idea of ‘selling myself’. Anonymity. There are some brave, (and I do think they are brave), bloggers who show their faces in their images. I am not brave. We do not want our children to be faced with someone confronting them, as ClearEyedGirl has experienced, nor do we want anyone who …
“I want you to fuck my ass,” was one of the first dirty things I asked Mr H for, if you don’t count spanking or asking him to be my Dominant. It was also one of the hardest things I have asked for. In fact asking him to do things to me is something I find really, really hard. But why? This is something I ask myself time and time again. Why, why, why? The thing is, I really don’t know. Why can’t I just say …
Being in the wrong mindset can ruin a carefully planned scene, and it is as important, for the Dom, as the sub to be in the right frame of mind. If either one of us isn’t feeling it then the chances are it either won’t work out, or it will take a lot of effort to make it work. So, I guess the important questions is: Mindset, what makes it, what breaks it? There are a lot of ways that my state of mind can …
Well would you? Would you? I would. In fact I do, all the time. I lie to myself daily, hourly even. There are times when the lies are all I have. The biggest and most frequent one. I’m fine. People ask me, “how are you?” They don’t want the truth, they want a lie, they expect a lie. If you tell them the truth too much they hide away from it, and you. They don’t want to hear that it hurts so bad I feel …
As the year and decade end approaches we are all prone to reflect back on our achievements and failures, and to look at how we have changed and grown in the intervening years. I think Mr H and I have come a long way together in the last ten years, and even further in the last 2. This year we celebrated our 20th wedding anniversary. We have been together for 24 years and I couldn’t be happier. Honestly. I am happier than I have ever …