Exploring Kink as a Monogamous Married Couple
I have mentioned before how I have a mental block when it comes to asking Mr H questions regarding sex, whether it is something I would like to do, or asking Mr H to change what he is doing. I still fear that rejection and ultimately don’t feel my needs and wants are important enough. Yesterday’s play had felt particularly nice, and so I wanted to know if Mr H had done something differently. But, today I asked a question. It took me the best part …
The first movie I saw that actually turned me on was Don Juan de Marco starring Jonny Depp, Marlon Brando and Faye Dunnaway. Here’s a little clip of Jonny in action… (you’re welcome 😉) I’d never seen a movie where the aim of the sexual encounters seemed to be about the women’s enjoyment… I watched that movie over and over again, eventually I bought it. It certainly sparked a few fantasies at the time. Limited imagination I haven’t really seen any other movies that have …
I placed the letter into the envelope on the side of his bed. He had told me to write him a list of instructions, a step by step guide to a fantasy we had yet to try, so it had to contain something new… I hoped I had succeeded. I had tried to be creative and rather than keep repeating the instruction “I want you to” I had simply placed a dot dot dot in front of each instruction. I hoped he would understand. Several …
The power exchange between Mr H and myself is at the core of what we do. When we started D/s and I asked Mr H to take control I didn’t realise how much it would change our lives. I definitely didn’t realise how much better our lives would become. What was it like before? Before, I tried to control every aspect of our lives. Where we went out to (when we went out). What we bought. When we had sex. The only thing in our …
Sir- are you thinking of playing with me tonight? I typed the message and hit send. Mr H was in the bath, and I felt horny, as usual. Why? The reply pinged up. I’m horny Sir. And if you’re not planning to play- can I get a toy out? I typed the reply and sent it. I haven’t decided if I will play with you yet. Mr H’s reply came back. I waited, wondering if he would tell me I could play. Quite often when …
I have spoken about how over the last few months/year masturbation has become difficult for me. The desire to do so has waned and so my orgasms fell into the domain of Mr H. Not because he commanded it, rather my body didn’t respond when I did try to masturbate and so eventually I just stopped even trying. Orgasms for Mr H Initially I could get round this by filming it and sending the video to Mr H. In my mind he would enjoy getting …
I was 20 before I experienced my first orgasm. I’d never masturbated before then or even touched myself intimately. I’d been divorced from my first husband for about a year by this time. I met MrH just before my 21st birthday and it took me about 6 weeks to persuade him into bed. We had good sex. I enjoyed it and enjoyed our bodies. MrH has always been a considerate lover, but in all honesty I didn’t orgasm every time. After I asked him to become my …
Yesterday MrH said he might let me suck his cock to completion. I did start the morning allowed to suck his cock for a few minutes and I spent the rest of the day horny. Now I love it when he lets me do this. And even writing it makes me wet. So being greedy I asked if he planned anything else… He told me off (quite rightly) reminding me I should be grateful for what I get given. So last night we went to …
We had a wonderful time at the hotel. MrH blindfolded me and kissed me. He led me to the bed and had me shuffle back. I felt myself move over the waterproof mat so he’d put that over the bed. He passed me the Doxy. “Masturbate for me,” he said. I hesitated, not because of fear, or embarrassment, but because I didn’t know how to turn it on. I told him so. He put my fingers on the buttons and I spent a few moments …
Thanks to the issue I mentioned in my previous post it’s been a while since MrH allowed me to/brought me to/gave me (choose your own meaning there) an orgasm. I’ve talked about how I no longer seem able to orgasm through masturbation – I just don’t seem to have the desire to do it, I am his and I seem to only want him to touch me. So I’m horny as hell. MrH has allowed me to pleasure him, once he even allowed me to …