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Try it

Over the last few years we have bought and tried a number of sex toys, quite a few of them are vibrators. Usually MrH tells me to try it out alone to see how I like it. It gives me the opportunity to experiment without worrying about being watched. The thing is, I think I’d like that to be different. There is part of me that wants MrH to be there. I want MrH to learn how I try them out. I want him to …

Get a toy out if you want

Last night Mr H played with me. He enjoys performing oral on me and although he has initially told me I could touch him, as I tied my hair up he changed his mind.  He spread my legs and began.  Unfortunately it didn’t go well. I was lied awkwardly. I have a body pillow, it keeps me comfortable at night. I was half on half off the pillow, laid at an angle.  I should have spoken up. The TV was still on. The noise was distracting. I …

Influential Movies

The first movie I saw that actually turned me on was Don Juan de Marco starring Jonny Depp, Marlon Brando and Faye Dunnaway.  Here’s a little clip of Jonny in action… (you’re welcome 😉) I’d never seen a movie where the aim of the sexual encounters seemed to be about the women’s enjoyment… I watched that movie over and over again, eventually I bought it. It certainly sparked a few fantasies at the time. Limited imagination I haven’t really seen any other movies that have …

Can I cum?

I have spoken about how over the last few months/year masturbation has become difficult for me. The desire to do so has waned and so my orgasms fell into the domain of Mr H. Not because he commanded it, rather my body didn’t respond when I did try to masturbate and so eventually I just stopped even trying. Orgasms for Mr H Initially I could get round this by filming it and sending the video to Mr H. In my mind he would enjoy getting …

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Not Broken

Earlier this month I wrote about my concerns that I couldn’t orgasm through masturbation any more following the introduction of D/s to our relationship. What I didn’t say in my broken fingers post, was that part of my concern was that perhaps my back issue has caused it. The loss of feeling I experienced when I was recently admitted to hospital, the fact that the nerves are not happy at the moment, I worried that my clitoral nerves had become damaged, that maybe they would …

My fingers broken….

Well maybe it’s my clit… I don’t know for sure, but since I discovered how amazing a wand orgasm is I haven’t had a “finger on clit” orgasm. Doesn’t matter if Mr H is at the helm or I try myself. So maybe it’s my clit that’s broken or perhaps it’s gone one strike?? Mr H’s Tongue and Finger(s)/Hand can get me there….. Eventually. I don’t even know if “promises” will still work as it’s been a while since that toy came out to play. …

Paloqueth wand and lube review

Paloqueth contacted me via my twitter account and asked me if I would be interested in reviewing their products. I mean I jumped at the chance – who doesn’t love free stuff!  They Offered to send me their rechargeable wand and lube, and I agreed.  They were delivered by Amazon they came in the usual Amazon packaging and therefore completely discreet. The Products and Packaging The Lube arrived first and came sealed in plastic. I liked the design, simple and unless you look carefully you …

Tell Me About – Orgasms

I was 20 before I experienced my first orgasm.  I’d never masturbated before then or even touched myself intimately. I’d been divorced from my first husband for about a year by this time.  I met MrH just before my 21st birthday and it took me about 6 weeks to persuade him into bed.   We had good sex. I enjoyed it and enjoyed our bodies. MrH has always been a considerate lover, but in all honesty I didn’t orgasm every time. After I asked him to become my …

That wasn’t me…

It was the wand. Last night after play, I thanked MrH for allowing me to cum and he responded, “that wasn’t anything to do with me it was the wand.” He sounded upset too which played on my mind a little. At one time manual masturbation was my usual method. I had a vibrator “promises” which I would sometimes get out but 8 of 10 times my fingers did the job admirably. Over the last few months our toy box has expanded and then we …

My love, my life…. always

We had a wonderful time at the hotel. MrH blindfolded me and kissed me. He led me to the bed and had me shuffle back. I felt myself move over the waterproof mat so he’d put that over the bed. He passed me the Doxy. “Masturbate for me,” he said. I hesitated, not because of fear, or embarrassment, but because I didn’t know how to turn it on. I told him so. He put my fingers on the buttons and I spent a few moments …