Exploring Kink as a Monogamous Married Couple
J went out last night. Not something we were expecting but fortuitous as Thursday night I had asked Mr H if I could book an orgasm (or 2 or 3) for Friday and Saturday nights. Mr H of course pointed out I was greedy but he was also laughing. Early evening I asked if he planned to play and was answered in the affirmative. Chat night During our chat on Wednesday Mr H asked me about oral sex, specifically what he does that I like …
Last night Mr H played with me. He enjoys performing oral on me and although he has initially told me I could touch him, as I tied my hair up he changed his mind. He spread my legs and began. Unfortunately it didn’t go well. I was lied awkwardly. I have a body pillow, it keeps me comfortable at night. I was half on half off the pillow, laid at an angle. I should have spoken up. The TV was still on. The noise was distracting. I …
I placed the letter into the envelope on the side of his bed. He had told me to write him a list of instructions, a step by step guide to a fantasy we had yet to try, so it had to contain something new… I hoped I had succeeded. I had tried to be creative and rather than keep repeating the instruction “I want you to” I had simply placed a dot dot dot in front of each instruction. I hoped he would understand. Several …
On Wednesday’s we have our maintenance session. We don’t have the TV on, instead we have one evening where we talk. There are no distractions and we talk about our week, our dynamic and what’s going well and what’s perhaps in need of discussion. I have a notes app on my phone and I usually have a couple of things in my list to talk about. This week it was “re-negotiating the Rules” and also “talking during play”. The rules Mr H further defined our …
Hardly. We stayed at a friends house last night to keep her cat company. She has just moved house and her cat is elderly, so we offered to go stay rather than stress her out at a cattery. We took our fire stick and used my phones WiFi hotspot to connect it to the internet. Her internet wasn’t yet set up at the new house. Cat sitting My friends bed is very comfortable but she has a double – we are used to a king. …
When people talk about double penetration I think the inference is that of a mmf threesome. That is something that fills me with dread, well any type of threesome does, but you do not need a third person to achieve double penetration, or even triple as I discovered, just imagination and long arms! The Logistics of double penetration. MrH has incorporated double and triple penetration into play a couple of times and I have really enjoyed it. A few years ago we made a clone …
I’ve been medicated for quite some time in one form or another. In 2005 when I had my breakdown I was started on antidepressants and I think I’ve been fortunate in that they have never affected my sex drive or ability to orgasm. I know not everyone is as lucky. When my back first started to cause me severe pain and the drs started to put me onto pain medication things did begin to change. The medications made me sleepy or made me feel high. …
Last night Mr H and I played. It had been a while and I felt nervous and awkward. I wanted to play, really wanted to. But when play began I felt awkward and not in the moment. It began when Mr H put my night collar on. The TV was playing and as he started running his hands over me, the conversation on the TV invaded my mind. I shook my head to try and shake it off but it didn’t work. He asked me what …
This blog started as an online extension/version of a written journal that I began shortly after Mr H and I started down the route of Dom and sub. One of the online community/sites we had joined SubMrs had an number of article/resources about journaling and communication and I decided I would use this medium to record my thoughts. Mr H would read it and this would then open a discussion. A way to communicate We didn’t stay with that particular site long. I found that …
I have spoken about how over the last few months/year masturbation has become difficult for me. The desire to do so has waned and so my orgasms fell into the domain of Mr H. Not because he commanded it, rather my body didn’t respond when I did try to masturbate and so eventually I just stopped even trying. Orgasms for Mr H Initially I could get round this by filming it and sending the video to Mr H. In my mind he would enjoy getting …