And then he kissed me

We slowly woke up this morning, fighting the urge to fall back to sleep. My body stiff and sore from laying still, his, warm and sweaty from the heat. I rolled over to him and lay near his hip. Not quite touching him, he was too warm. I admired his body, his legs and hips. His abdomen and of course his cock, silky smooth, as it lay over his balls. I raised my body up and leant over to kiss his cock from base to …

depression

Pull yourself together

Pull yourself together and get on with it….  That’s one phrase I think I would ban from the world if I could. The idea that someone, anyone, who is depressed could just pull themselves together is not only ludicrous but it suggests their feelings are little, insignificant, manageable or imaginary. Bah! I have my own battles with depression and (touch wood) I’ve been stable for a while now. My demons are controlled, my darkness hidden by light, but (and there’s always a but) at any time …

Tell Me About: Collars and Cuffs

This is something that I have written about before, my collars I mean, and I say collars because I have a few. My first post dedicated to them, collars and chains discussed the basics and why we decided to use them. Since then I’ve posted about new collars made and these have been relatively brief, but I think I have talked about the symbolic value of my chains and collars in a number of posts, and I will try not to repeat myself too much. …

a groom putting on the wedding ring on bride s finger

The Erotic Journal Challenge 26- Vows

Our wedding was a civil service which meant we couldn’t use the traditional vows, they don’t allow you to, so we wrote our own. Now MrH states categorically that we will not renew our vows at any time. He says that as he hasn’t changed his mind on the first lot there’s no need to repeat them.. and I can understand his point of view… even if I do love the romantic idea of it. This year will mark our 20 year wedding anniversary. China …

spanked

Spanked at last

J went out last night. Not something we were expecting but fortuitous as Thursday night I had asked Mr H if I could book an orgasm (or 2 or 3) for Friday and Saturday nights. Mr H of course pointed out I was greedy but he was also laughing. Early evening I asked if he planned to play and was answered in the affirmative. Chat night During our chat on Wednesday Mr H asked me about oral sex, specifically what he does that I like …

caned

After

If you had told me 2 years ago that being caned twice a week would be something I looked forward to I wouldn’t have believed you. The use of a cane started on my “Hell no” list. It took a nearly 3 months for it to move to the “I’d like to try” list. I think we started on about 50 strikes. These days I get about 200. I’m sure MrH knows when the endorphins kick in and I head for subspace, as I stop …

Get a toy out if you want

Last night Mr H played with me. He enjoys performing oral on me and although he has initially told me I could touch him, as I tied my hair up he changed his mind.  He spread my legs and began.  Unfortunately it didn’t go well. I was lied awkwardly. I have a body pillow, it keeps me comfortable at night. I was half on half off the pillow, laid at an angle.  I should have spoken up. The TV was still on. The noise was distracting. I …

Influential Movies

The first movie I saw that actually turned me on was Don Juan de Marco starring Jonny Depp, Marlon Brando and Faye Dunnaway.  Here’s a little clip of Jonny in action… (you’re welcome 😉) I’d never seen a movie where the aim of the sexual encounters seemed to be about the women’s enjoyment… I watched that movie over and over again, eventually I bought it. It certainly sparked a few fantasies at the time. Limited imagination I haven’t really seen any other movies that have …

Striving to be perfect

Growing up I worked hard to be the perfect daughter. I was not to speak until I was spoken to and I was not allowed to have any opinions. The only time we (my brother and I) were praised was for getting good test results. Only my results were never good enough. I got B’s and C’s (my dyslexia was undiagnosed.. well to be fair it wasn’t recognised back in the 80’s) whereas my younger brother got straight A’s. He once sulked for a week …

Tell Me About: Erotic Humiliation

When this prompt on Erotic Humiliation first started I told Missy I didn’t think I’d have anything to contribute as it’s not something we’ve done. But- As I’ve read the wonderful submissions I have come to realise that it is an area that I do get off on, I just didn’t realise it had a name. I kinda just thought it was talking dirty. Blushes When I ask Mr H if he will fuck me, or try to ask him to play with me anally …