Exploring Kink as a Monogamous Married Couple
“I want you to fuck my ass,” was one of the first dirty things I asked Mr H for, if you don’t count spanking or asking him to be my Dominant. It was also one of the hardest things I have asked for. In fact asking him to do things to me is something I find really, really hard. But why? This is something I ask myself time and time again. Why, why, why? The thing is, I really don’t know. Why can’t I just say …
Personal Independence Payment, that’s what PIP stands for. I had my PIP assessment done on the 27th. It replaced Disability Living Allowance a few years ago and as my pain and mobility has been seriously affected this year I have applied for this state benefit. In all honesty I would rather not apply for benefits. I like to be independent, you know? But, I have also lost £150 per week in income when I stopped working full time hours, and that is not an easy …
While S2 was at work on Boxing Day, we took the opportunity to play. I thought we would not be playing until the evening when S2 went out with friends and so mentally I was prepared for that. When MrH put got two glass dildos out and the doxy I wasn’t prepared. In fact I worried that my mind was not going to play well. He pointed at the door “Go for a wee.” He said. It wasn’t a suggestion it was clearly an order …
Being in the wrong mindset can ruin a carefully planned scene, and it is as important, for the Dom, as the sub to be in the right frame of mind. If either one of us isn’t feeling it then the chances are it either won’t work out, or it will take a lot of effort to make it work. So, I guess the important questions is: Mindset, what makes it, what breaks it? There are a lot of ways that my state of mind can …
I briefly mentioned in a recent post that I had ordered some stockings without permission. MrH does not like to punish me and so I didn’t know if he would. I found out last night. While I’ve got you there. Every evening MrH changes my collar. I stand in front of him and he removes by chain and replaces it with my night collar. After this is done he applies an ibuprofen gel to my back; I lean over the bed while he does so …
Well would you? Would you? I would. In fact I do, all the time. I lie to myself daily, hourly even. There are times when the lies are all I have. The biggest and most frequent one. I’m fine. People ask me, “how are you?” They don’t want the truth, they want a lie, they expect a lie. If you tell them the truth too much they hide away from it, and you. They don’t want to hear that it hurts so bad I feel …
As the year and decade end approaches we are all prone to reflect back on our achievements and failures, and to look at how we have changed and grown in the intervening years. I think Mr H and I have come a long way together in the last ten years, and even further in the last 2. This year we celebrated our 20th wedding anniversary. We have been together for 24 years and I couldn’t be happier. Honestly. I am happier than I have ever …
On Friday, I was visited by a lovely lady, who came to see what adjustments could be made to our home, or equipment they would suggest, to make things easier for me around the house. She was really nice, sympathetic and kind. Even better she carries some equipment on her so after the assessment she left things with us. I wrote about the kind of things we hoped she would suggest in my post Opening Doors. So what did she suggest? Bathroom Equipment. The first piece …
The prompt for Wicked Wednesday is Naughty n’ Nice, and well I do love to be naughty! I would much rather be doing naughty things with MrH than muddling along as a plain Jane; which is how I used to see myself. I decided to make this post a little different, and include a short story for your entertainment (and to give Mr H play material). Stepping into the Light For years I hid in the shadows, I didn’t want to stand out. I didn’t …
My new employer invited MrH and I to go on the Christmas Party. It was at a local venue, and as I didn’t have to go into work the next day, we decided to go. It was an opportunity for us to go out together and get dressed up. Something we haven’t done in months, with one thing and another. Making and Effort for Each Other. Being able to dress up and look pretty is something I like doing, because I want MrH to be …