Exploring Kink as a Monogamous Married Couple
There were so many things that came to mind when I saw the prompt 400. Should I talk about time, or how much I love Mr H, you know like the sonnet by Elizabeth Barrett Browning “How do I love thee? let me count the ways…” Or, should I talk about human nature and the ways we hurt each other? I allowed the ideas to run around my head as time ran down, and here I am with just 2 days left and still no …
We spent the day in the local a&e and although they gave me some more pain medication we did not achieve our goal; forward movement in a treatment plan. On the way home I asked Mr H to reclaim my arse. Knees up please. I did undergo all the usual tests which included my least favourite, the finger up the bum and being asked to squeeze their finger test. No really, that’s an actual test, to see if the anal sphincter muscles are working. The doctor told …
I have had many friends throughout the years but I do not have any life long friends. I have often said that people come into your life for one of two reasons, either they are there to help you, or you are there to help them. Vanilla Friends. I seem to have many friends who have been placed in my path who have taken from me in some way. DD Jen recently used the term “bond or burden” in her post Can I watch you have …
I have a simple relationship with food on the surface, I eat almost anything and I will try almost anything; raw fish and blue cheeses are my only no, no foods. If you scratch the surface though, my relationship is much more complex. I comfort eat, and I over eat. It doesn’t matter how much food is put in front of me I am compelled to eat it. Comfort eating. When I am worried, upset, anxious, sad or bored I eat. I take negative feelings …
I practice being mindful often, and have done for years. It is something that you are encouraged to do during counselling after a breakdown, to not focus on the past, and to be present in the moment. It does take a lot of practice and I am not perfect at it, in fact most of the time I suck at it. How I practice being mindful. Everyday I try to take a few moments to close my eyes, and breathe. It is the only thing …
Timekeeping is very important to Mr H, he hates to be late. I hate being late too but I am also easily distracted and so I quite often run late. With the change in our dynamic I know when I message him to say “running late” I am making him unhappy. What if one day he said, “you better not be late or there will be consequences,” would that mean I got a spanking? I guess a girl can hope. I love it when he …
My home is very normal, modest, and rented. To some this means it isn’t ours as we will never own it, but I believe that my home is not about the bricks and mortar it is about the people and love it contains. It doesn’t matter how posh the hotel we stay in, I always miss the comforts of our hearth and home. Home is where the heart is. This is a well used phrase isn’t it? I don’t know about anyone else, but I …
It is Friday today, and I am laying in bed wondering what is going to happen next. Yesterday’s appointment with the specialist was strange and it has created new challenges. I am going to have to work hard to keep my thoughts positive and not get too down. Thoughts on Consultants We went to see the consultant and one of the major hospitals in the area. I have only seen three consultants in my life who have actually “examined” me, and that makes me cross …
A while ago, I did a strip tease for Mr H. I practiced for a week and I really enjoyed doing it. He grinned and got an erection, the perfect appreciation. When I am feeling a little flirty and playful I will sometimes ask Mr H, “do you like what you see?” “Oh yes!” Is my favourite verbal answer, but when he runs his hands over my body, when his cock gets harder, that’s my all time favourite response, that’s appreciation that can’t be faked. …