Exploring Kink as a Monogamous Married Couple
I haven’t written much lately. My heart, and head have not been in it. I have now spent over 7 months lied in bed staring at the bedroom walls and it is starting to weigh me down. 16 months in excruciating pain and I don’t feel sexy or attractive, so writing about that would be difficult. Inactivity and some poor eating habits have also caused weight gain that has me avoiding mirrors again. 99% of my clothes do not fit. I have 3 nighties, 3 …
I don’t take a huge amount of photographs and I would say I dabble with photography more than anything and I will be eternally grateful for editing software! I do think that taking pictures of myself has helped to improve my self esteme and there are quite a few images I have taken that I am very happy with – generally speaking they feature my boobs. Breast Photography. I have written before about how I love my boobs, and I have a section of the …
I have a love hate relationship with my body. Mostly I hate it; sometimes I love it. Mr H on the other hand has always been steady in his adoration and admiration of it. He tells me quite frequently that he loves curves, especially my arse, usually accompanied with a loving squeeze. A few years ago, after my hysterectomy I finally started to lose weight. I had gained so much weight while my back was bad, and from the pain medications that I was very …
I have a simple relationship with food on the surface, I eat almost anything and I will try almost anything; raw fish and blue cheeses are my only no, no foods. If you scratch the surface though, my relationship is much more complex. I comfort eat, and I over eat. It doesn’t matter how much food is put in front of me I am compelled to eat it. Comfort eating. When I am worried, upset, anxious, sad or bored I eat. I take negative feelings …
Yesterday’s post Hairy Pussy resulted in a long discussion between Mr H and myself. Probably one that was very overdue, well there is no probably about it really. I have written about how we have not made the effort we should, and again and again said we would, but we haven’t. We have not focused on ourselves, we have not been prioritising intimacy. Not really, and definitely not consistently. Life gets in the way. 2019 was not a great year for us. My back pain …
One of my rules is that I am supposed to be shaved every day, ready to be fucked. It isn’t like it is too much to ask is it? Mr H likes to eat pussy and, he doesn’t want to be faced with a hairy pussy. I can understand that because I prefer MrH to be trimmed too, not shaved, just trimmed you understand. I like stubble on his face and short hair around his cock. Longer hairs tend to make me gag more. Lazy …
I said I wasn’t going to do this. A old year reflection, a new year plan. I don’t like it. Plans suck. Plans don’t happen. At least for me. So reflecting on 2019 all I see is a long list of failed plans. And that sucks. The things that didn’t happen A biking holiday in Scotland More Biking in general Several Hotel Stays Attending a rope workshop Going to a BDSM event Going out for a meal with some girlfriends Turning a bedroom into a …
Happy New Year, Happy New Year, May we all… The ABBA song is playing loudly and several people are singing, if you can call the sounds they are making in their drunken states singing, along. Midnight has just sounded and the fireworks are sounding out all around the neighbourhood. Jenny slid into the bedroom and closed the door, she just needed a minute, one moment alone, to cry. Dave was here. They hadn’t told her, her so called friends, they hadn’t warned her that her ex …
My new employer invited MrH and I to go on the Christmas Party. It was at a local venue, and as I didn’t have to go into work the next day, we decided to go. It was an opportunity for us to go out together and get dressed up. Something we haven’t done in months, with one thing and another. Making and Effort for Each Other. Being able to dress up and look pretty is something I like doing, because I want MrH to be …