How to stay positive when life sucks

I think it is fair to say for many people right now life kinda sucks. We are unable to enjoy the freedoms we did in order to ensure the NHS can cope with the number of people that are unwell, and to protect as many vulnerable people as possible. Covid 19 will, I think, be remembered the way we remember the black death and the Spanish Flu, and I for one hope that I do not lose and friends or family to it (touch wood). …

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How to stick to your diet when you’re in pain.

When you are in pain all the time, sticking to your diet is often the last thing on your mind. When I hurt I want to nibble. I crave salted peanuts… yes I know, I love salty nuts. Go ahead giggle! But, I am a comfort eater, I admit it. The thing is, sometimes it is good to have something to focus on, ideally something that doesn’t require a lot of concentration, and trying to eat a healthy diet can be just the thing. I …

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The truth about being a submissive wife.

Did you read 50 shades and imagine that was your life? Do you want to know what it is really like? Well, I am here today to share my experience and to tell you the truth about being a submissive wife. The truth will out. A while ago I wrote a post, ‘So you want to be a submissive wife?’ which gave you some advice on how to start your journey, and things you might want to consider. Mr. H and I have just reached …

Letting go

How I’m Letting Go of Negativity and Feeling Great!

Letting go of learned behaviours must be one of the hardest things to do. I say this because at 45 I still struggle to leave food on my plate, and no matter how I try when I put clothes on I immediately focus on how big my backside and hips are. These things are leftovers from my childhood that resurface over and over again. One of the reasons I am refocusing on losing weight is because I know it impacts my mental health negatively when …

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Living Hell

The nerve block proceedure I had on the 29th did provide some relief for a few days, as long as I didn’t move about. When I did go out for brief periods to see if there was improvement, I was sadly dissapointed to find the relief was negligable. Sunday J went off to work, and we had time alone. Mr. H held me tight, kissed me and we made love. Sometimes I think you need vanilla, at least I do anyway. Later in the day …

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Week 2 weigh in- talking shit

It’s Saturday again, time to step on the scales, and I also think it’s time we talked about a difficult topic. Yes, we need to talk shit. Today hasn’t been a good food day. We were supposed to have spaghetti bolognese for tea but, it smelled off. I mean off. I was upstairs and the smell turned my stomach, and so with no other option (it’s shopping day tomorrow) we ordered takeout. I got chicken strips and chips, but ate far too much. I ignored …

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The Voyeur in me

Playing in public, being watched or being the voyeur is something that intrigues me a great deal, but does that mean it is something I want to do? Gerri Halliwell’s song Look At Me as all about the media obsession with taking pictures of celebrities, and more recently, Lady Gaga, used the media as inspiration for her song Paparazzi. Being viewed as an object is nothing new for some people, especially those who live in the world of celebrity but for the average person, that …

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My weakness

Sweets. Sweets and desserts are my weakness. I have a sweet tooth like you wouldn’t believe. I make my meal choices in a restaurant based on what is on offer for dessert. It really is no surprise that I am overweight, in fact what is surprising, is that I am not a lot more overweight. Knowing this is a weakness and doing something about it however, are two very different things. The syns method used by Slimming world means I can have anything I want, …

Proper planning

Planning is important in most things, as the saying goes proper planning prevents piss poor performance, and Mr. H loves to plan. We once went on a hotel stay we had forgotten about and it went so poorly because he hadn’t planned for it. Now I’m not saying I dont like a plan, because I do, but I also love spontaneity. Food Choices. Meal Saturday 25th July Value Breakfast Cereal 40g HE B Lunch Soup 3.5 syn Tea Jacket potato Free Tea Salad, and beans …

Week 1 weigh in

Saturday morning arrived, after a particularly poor night sleep and it was time to see if I have achieved a weight loss. I probably didn’t help myself as before settling down I spent a while fondling Mr. H cock. It was quite relaxing, slowly and gently feeling his cock as it got harder. I admit to being his cock whore, I would happily spend all day fondling him. I love the smooth silkly texture of the skin, and how it glides through my hand. Naturally …